Today I just feel like writing. The picture of my eye is just to emphasize that these are my views and I also don’t like the way posts look without a photo of some sort. I feel like I should write this to let it all out and then let it all go. I know this blog is typically about fashion and such, but it is my personal blog as well. This will probably sound like I’m going through a breakup, but I’m not. Well, not really.
Let me first say that I’m not bitter, I’m not angry, and I don’t think all guys are the same. My problem with men lately is that I keep encountering some of the same things. If it’s not going to work out, I almost wish something different would happen just to spice it up a little bit and give me a few different experiences. I probably expect too much of guys but I don’t feel that it’s unreasonable to want someone to put out just as much as I put in. Right now I’m emotionally tired. I don’t have the energy to keep giving them my time and effort anymore for it to turn out to be a waste and a disappointment. While I know we are young, I still think we’re too old to keep giving each other the run around.
I’ve learned that it doesn’t matter how old they are or where they are in life – they can still come with some of the same problems. It’s not like I go around looking for men to date, but when I get one I like I always take him seriously and start getting to know him and working towards a good relationship only to find that he has baggage from the past, communication problems, immature or illogical behavior, or just “not ready for a relationship” – I’ve heard that one far too many times.
It seems like everyone wants to play games and run through as many people as possible. I’m one that believes I can still enjoy life if I’m young and with someone, and I can enjoy life young and single too. I’ve gotten advice to date older and that didn’t work, and I’ve gotten advice to just use guys for sex like a lot of people are doing lately but that’s not really my style. As for now I think I’ll just block everything out. I should stop while I’m ahead, quit for a spell while I still have faith in men. I know there’s someone out there for me who will finally do all the right things, and hopefully I’ll get him when he’s good and ready.
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